Recompile

I suppose it started right after Heather was born. I was drunk with the physical reality of motherhood. My body had been transformed; mind and spirit had to change, too, to keep up.

We were driving east up 67th toward Phinney, and I saw a man walking in the sidewalk. He was just a man. Some guy walking down the street. He wore an army green coat with faded jeans, hands deep in his pockets to keep out the January drafts. Worn out ankle high hiking boots in an indescribable shade of drab. His shaved bald head had a thin coating of now grey hair.

That bald head in the cold looked so much like my new baby’s. For a split second I saw him as his mother just have, just a few weeks after his birth. I wondered how that giant adult body held up a weak, newborn’s heavy head. Then he took another step and he was a middle aged man again.

For the rest of the day I was lost in that immediacy of motherhood. Everyone I saw was someone’s newborn.

I never quite recovered.

How do you get angry with someone, even someone who desperately deserves it, when in the blink of an eye you can see them as a two week old baby, utterly dependent on others for survival?

And aren’t we all?

This entry was posted in philosophy. Bookmark the permalink.

4 Responses to Recompile

  1. When I originally commented I clicked the “Notify me when new comments are added” checkbox and now each time a comment is added I get
    four e-mails with the same comment. Is there any way
    you can remove people from that service? Cheers!

    My web page Realm of The Mad God Hacking

  2. lovely says:

    Just wish to say your article is as astonishing. The clarity for your submit is just great and i can suppose you’re knowledgeable on this
    subject. Fine with your permission allow me to grasp
    your feed to stay up to date with forthcoming post. Thank you 1,000,000 and please carry
    on the rewarding work.

  3. xcellhost.in says:

    Thank you for some other informative site.
    Where else may I get that kind of information written in such a perfect way?
    I have a project that I am just now operating on, and I’ve been at the
    glance out for such information.

  4. The man invited Mc – Connell into his bed, where the boy fell asleep quickly.
    Hen walleye can run over 15 pounds during the spawn, and some fisheries biologists claim
    that any pike over 8 pounds is a female. Chipko, which means literally “to embrace” has spread to many other parts
    of India and has drawn worldwide attention for its resourceful efforts to fight against deforestation and thereby protecting ecology
    and society.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

You may use these HTML tags and attributes: <a href="" title=""> <abbr title=""> <acronym title=""> <b> <blockquote cite=""> <cite> <code> <del datetime=""> <em> <i> <q cite=""> <strike> <strong>